Its one of those times i go cranky and keep saying RARR.

So today i had my TRACkers follow up with Ben and PEW , kind of didn't know what to expect since i'm not really the kind that enjoys this kind of discussions but since i've been though countless 'interviews' didn't really clam up too much, Pew said i was rather tense which was true because like HEY afterall he is my PIC whom i only met briefly before in the last few months and further I being the easily intimidated by people three times my size (i'm just using a figure of speech ar) Well you get the picture la. haha but not too bad i guess just rather weird to have someone u don't know, know so much about you its scary. LOL

And as of now i officiate operation
"Clean Up Before Pastor reads campaign."

Yes the Pastoral team in TPMC apparently go around reading blogs so i had better clean up before they come visiting. NOT that i got anything to hide but just in case i ever flamed them (not that i ever remember doing so, my pastors are the BEST) it better disappear before they see it. haha

Besides that, PEW requests to be added to my MSN contact list.
IMAGINE THAT my PIC blogs, reads blogs and he even Msn's.

Whoever said methodist pastors were behind times. HEH.


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So I’m back and I came back with a few souvenirs
1. Sun burn on my Face, neck, Arms and legs
2. Pain due to the sun burn on the neck and face
3. Ugly tan lines ( go figure)
4. And I’m probably as red as a well done lobster.

Well it probably what you would expect if you play golf in the blistering heat for 2 days. Had a superbly great time besides the heat issue and actually enjoyed myself.
Seriously R&R indeed. Heh. =)


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So i'll be gone for a few days for some R&R cause i though might as well leave the country before poly ties me down from travelling. Soon the good old days of travelling as and when i want will be gone as i begin my new chapter of education. What will the days ahead bring i really wonder. I'm getting the jitters. RARR.

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Its rather ironic sometimes when u feel like u are really busy but on looking at your calendar u see nothing and u can't recall what is it you actually have to do. Well, thats how i'm kind of feeling right now. Rather amusing actually i find since i'm normally quite busy. Maybe its just my way of avoiding commiting time to people. Hate it when i have no time for myself to do what i want to do or at the least have some alone time. Of course i must learn to draw the line between not giving all my time and not giving any at all because i still have my responsibilities.

Poly starts soon and well, i don't feel adequately prepared yet. Feeling rather lost in space so to say since i think i won't know anyone in my course.Making new friends is not really my thing actually,considering i'm S-C. Call me picky or fussy but i still think a few very good friends beat many just normal friends.Suffice to say i don't have all that many friends that i would consider as good friends as in i would dare to leave my life in their hands but there are a few and i really thank God for giving them to me. =) Call me Emo or whatever but i'm begining to miss the good old secondary school days. All the mad stuff we did that i can laugh my guts out to when we recall them and all my WONDERFUL friends who i spent alot of time with (or used to)

Oh wells. life goes on with or without me so even if i hate it i still got to move on.

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This place seems rather silent now a days, i find myself drifting furter and further away from the people around me, its not that i'm being anti social, but i just don't feel like going out sometimes. I've changed, getting rather lazy i guess which is like a bad thing. My sleeping patterns are like mixed up and even recently i've not been able to really sleep well. I always wake up after a few hours which is why i guess could explain my mood. When i lack sleep i'm super edgy and not rather friendly.

Sometimes i wonder how my life is kind of the mess it is right now. When my days are pretty bleak and i waste them away doing almost close to nothing. Its only been coming to 3 weeks since TRACkers ended and i feel like crap. Good thing i spent the other 2 months well in TRACkers, no regrets there. Oh well.


I should kill myself.

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So its been about 2 weeks since TRACkers ended, frankly have not been doing much(personal opinion). Somehow after so long u feel u deserve a break but yet when u get it u really don't know what to do with your time. Thus here i am as someone says sitting here and letting my brain rust. I would like to think i'm not that stupid yet but who knows, stoning my time away has been fun yet rather meaningless at times.
Another thing i realised when i was doing QT this morning is that many people actually to horde up earthly wealth, they think its a good fall back but they don't realise that by doing so they are actually building a shaky foundation, Why i say this, people often get carried away and horde up too much thinking that they may need it, but frankly it just shows how little thay trust God to provide for them. I must admit i was one of them( just read one of my previous entry) but it dawned upon me while i was reading that maybe i should stop focusing on building a shakable kingdom but rather a kingdom that is unshakeable. And God promises He will give us a kingdom that is unshakable,thus from now on i say i'm going to change my approach and start accumulating heavely wealth. Anyone want to join me?? =)

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I discoverd to my dismay that my phone is cranky. Yes my rather not so old phone that has even yet to celebrate its one year annivesary. Apparently i can only charge it in a certain random position of which once i move it it stops charging. RARR. And to my horror my friend who had a similar problem says it'll take a week or two for them to get it fixed. Honestly can't believe this is happening but it is. So oh well. probably have to think of something. At least the warrenty is still valid so no cost to me. TIll next time.

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For a certain reason i'm rather elated at this point in time. REALLY i am. Its like after so long and all that prayer i finally see God work once again. The problem may be big but remember our God is always bigger. =) And don't know if u'll read this but Congrats again anyway. HEH

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Day 4 of Day 143

So i went to the IT fair for a third time finally with my dad thinking i could get my laptop after the long wait. Turns out their sold out which means i have to wait for about a month and a half minimal before the new shipment arrives. In my opinion.(Insert Praise here) Ok wasn't exactly feeling that way just now but suddenly i remembered what i read while doing Qt 2 days ago.
i quote
"Many times we assume God’s reasoning for doing the things He does. The Lord may have released us to walk through a door that He has clearly opened -- but He may also have other purposes in mind. Let’s not be so quick to assume. There’s no hurry. God won’t shut a door if it is His divine will for it to be open!"
Well i guess now it really make sense because 2 days ago i was also comtemplating what to get. Which is why i give thanks, for all i know He may have something better for me. Who knows?? =)

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So just now i was doing accounts for myself and i calculated my bank balance. MY GOODNESS, i got a shock of my life. Don't ask alright but i have no idea what i have spent on in the last month. My balance is far from what i prefer it to be for me to be at 'safe' levels.Not to mention it was CNY just a few weeks ago, the balance should have shot up alittle rather than go down so much, Must start watching how i'm spending my money. RARR. This is not good at all. =(

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Well i got my postings today. Had to wake up like super super early just to check them. Anyway Got my second choice of Biomed/Biotech at Tp. Not too bad i guess. Initially quite sad but after a while i figured not too bad lah. Part of God's bigger plan as well so i shall accept it and since its also my passion i'm going to do my best. =)
RARR suprisingly didn't stone too much today. Was rather busy talking to quite a number of people who were rather disappointed. Fell asleep on someone unfortunately in the afternoon cause i was superbly exhausted so had a short nap. Sorry again friend. =)
I'm sleepy. think i shall go sleep like soon before i collaspe.

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So i spent the day stoning since TRACkers has ended and i must say it was really weird. After all that business and all i've been going through for the last 2 months the sudden break in routine is rather surprising. Oh well. hope tomorrow will be much better, considering postings will be announced like when i get up. GG. God please let me get into a course i want that is part of your untimate plan. =) off to bed. Long day tmr

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So i decided to change my Blog skin a little this afternoon if u haven't realised by now the picture is different. Was inspired by the graduation service last night a little and thus a little something that will remind us TRACkers of the journey ahead. Yup. Oh and whoever i took pictures with last night. i WANT THEM!! please send them to me asap. Would really really appreciate it. =))

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And then in the blink of an eye TRACkers ends..
Yes. i have offically completed 2 months of a journey of Faith, had graduation service in the evening and i must say it was superb. =) kind of weird though how at the begining u can't wait for it to end but yet at the end u just don't want it to end so quickly. Learnt alot in TRACkers that i would have never learnt of i had not gone. No doubt i had doubts when i first signed up but now i fully realise why God put that desire in me to want to go for TRACkers. I will always remember the times we went crazy although i wasn't part of it. And well certain friendships made are just indescribable. One being my 'silly' friend who i met in TRACkers. =) and the rest who sometimes really made me laugh and were part of the experience. I really have benefited and God. i just want to say Thanks for everything and Continue to work in lives of TRACkers that we may be people after your heart. =)

Right now i really don't know if i should be sad that its over or be jubilant that the journey does not end here but its actually a new begining...

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So i have been rather busy the past few days so much so to the extent i crashed without even changing when i returned home yesterday night. Was super exhasted. So brief oveview of the past few days
Monday
Dental in morning than back to BMC to help the group with the stuff we needed to do, namely the video and stuff. After which i went home rather exhausted because i stayed up till 4 am the night before to do my report.Returned home thinking i could rest. Pastor calls to ask me to to bring my camera so that can take mug shots.
Tuesday.
Down to BMC as usual in the morning for a session by Malcom Tan which i found rather interesting, after that back toBMC for Session on Goal setting by David Ho. Got mug shots taken and brought home to edit.
Wednesday.
Led worship for like the first time in my life. Kind of cool come to think of it now. =) Qing ying played for me. I must say i feel super honored that she played for me on her birthday. oh and THANKS again. =) Bre led devotions which i found were super good ( i'm not being biased here alright) Kind spoke to me personally quite a bit. After that was Malcom Tan again then after lunch i rushed off to Alexendra hospital for Doc's appointment and then after that back to BMC again because my help was needed by the Chiang Mai team leading worship. Did Av for them than went down to BB room to help with the video. Stayed at BMC till like 10 plus. And got home like at 11 plus. Ate a little and crashed.
Today
Woke up at like 6 plus realising that i slept in my clothes. I was so tired that i didn't change the night before. Talk about Crashing. (Super sorry for those i was supposed to meet online.) Bathed then started on the TRACkers testimony thing with the Mug shots. Did that then went down to BMC in the afternoon for the interview and AV and video work. Yup. thats about it. Off to finish up the testimony thing. I'm graduating tomorrow. YAY. =)

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