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Being on MC really allows you to sit and reflect about everything. In the daily hustle of life we tend to always overlook things and fail to spend ample time reflecting about life.

Well today i had this opportunity, and it really made me realise what i have been just putting aside and choosing not to focus on.

Not wanting to go into details since this blog can probably be read by the entire world and i hate disclosing my private life. I'm just going to say: I really Miss you friend.

You probably don't visit here already and will probably never read this but i want to say that i think of you everyday because of this barrier that is up that i cannot do anything about. It just makes me feel so helpless when i see you going through stuff knowing that i cannot do anything to help because you probably wouldn't even want to talk to me. I messed up i know and things got complicated but i never wanted them to be this way. The truth is that a part of me really likes you because you were always there when i needed someone and you treated me better than anyone has. I'm sorry about the state things are in and i know deep down i will most likely never have the chance to return all you have given me, but with this post i say one chance is all ask for.

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2 hours ago I could Just about have killed someone.


You know how it seems when everthing doesn't go your way? Well today could be one of those days. I had a 2 hour break which i used to rush home to get my lab coat since according to the schedule theres lab today only to return to discover the lab had been postoned. like -.- I rushed home in that limited time only stopping for 3 mins to gulp down lunch and this is what happens. BAHH. Should have just stayed at home.

Anways i finally managed to go down to the new and improved Gm yesterday. In my opinion money that should have been spent on more essential items seemed to have been diverted to other more unessential items. Take for example the number of LCD TV's hanging around. Did i also mention how the place now reminds me of a hospital/prison? design wise that is. Of couse the greatest disappointment was going back to the only block that was retained to find it had been refitted and thus all the memories also gone with it. Such a pity i say.

Busy weekend ahead. BAH. Everything seems to happen at the same time. And they all warrent my attention. =(

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So schools started and i think I'm still in Cambodian culture which pretty much means taking things easy and slowly. IF i were in Cambodia, i would fit right in, unfortunately in this land where time equals money i guess we all don't have that luxury of doing so.

Sad how my 2 long awaited weeks of holiday seem to have flown away but i guess going to cambodia really made it worth while. Especially with a wonderful team of peope who always support you.

Anyway should get my term tests back this week which is not exactly the thing i'm looking forward to since i kind of have an idea of what kind of grade i'm going to get. Hopefully nothing tops the chart of failures but oh well.

Off to sleep i guess. Gone are the days of late nights.

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Sometimes things really just don't make any sense. Even in the bible.
I guess i've learnt that unfortunate things happen not so much because God is against me but more that He wants to grow me in my faith and that in times like this i should depend on Him fully. For the Joy of the Lord is my Strength, even if i do not understand why things happen, i believe that they all happen for a reason.

With all i am

Into your hand
i commit again
with all I am
for you Lord

you hold my world
in the palm of your hand
and I'm yours forever

Chorus
Jesus I believe in you
Jesus I belong to you
you're the reason that I live
the reason that I sing
with all I am

I'll walk with you
wherever you go
through tears and joy
I'll trust in you

and I will live
in all of your ways and
your promises forever


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Trip was really good. I learnt quite alot and i think my life was changed during the course of the last week. I'm really not going to go into the details because words do not describe them.
However being surrounded by friends really made me realise that theres this void in me that longs for true friends i guess.

Friendships now a days are so superficial. Everyone just goes Hi and Bye but who really cares? Which is why i think i very appreciate when people show true concern for me. Maybe thats why i try to return what was first given but i guess sometimes things get across wrongly because i get misinterpreted.

Lifes to short i guess to live in regret.

In any case to alll who have been so nice to me i say i great thank you, even if things have become strained between us.

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I'm back

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I was looking through my TRACKers Journal just now and as i read each entry i reminisced the times we spent together. Its only been 3 months since the ending and in that short period almost everything seems to have changed.

I don't know why, but emotions are surging through me as i type this. Perhaps i expected more out the friendships made. But we've gone our seperate ways.


I'm leaving again tomorrow.
My plane departs at 7:05 Pm

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There was something i really wanted to blog down but somehow i seem to have lost my train of thoughts after doing that CSAS assignment. BAH. (note to self. write down my thoughts as they come seeing how i have bad memory)

Anyway i finally met up the guys after like eons to catch up and watch a movie. It was fun i can say and the few of them haven't changed a bit since i lost saw them. Jokers to the end. Of course meeting deh was a different thing altogether and i reckon we're the most sane of the bunch. OH wells its over now and they will be missed but thankfully we're meeting again next sat. =))



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There are a few things i learnt over the course of today.Namely what to do when faced with difficult situations which we so often face in the challenges of daily life. Strangely this is one of those times u could say that its too much of a coincidence. In my opinion its one of those 'wake up' calls once again.

It always seems that somehow or another we tend to forget what good God has done when the going gets tough. Haven't there been times you've asked where is God when your faced in a particular situation? I know I'm guilty. But something someone said today reminded me that i had to always remember God is in control and that i should put my faith and trust in Him for He has that bigger plan mapped out. Romans 8:28 is a good example why.

Another thing is that we have to be responsible and faithful in whatever situations God places us. Even if it means doing things that are not so normal to you. For really, we don't see the bigger picture.

Yes. for those who lasted my 'mini sermon'. I just want to say things in life will sometimes not go the way we want it to. Its unfortunate but we may not always see the big picture. So trust God and if its His will, things will get better. =)


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Mood-Indescribably happy with a tinge of nostalgia

And so they finally begin..

The one thing i used to enjoy and take for granted. HOLIDAYS.
They say you normally only begin to appreciate something after you lose it, how apt.

To my dearest friends out there who i haven't had time to meet in like eons. This is your chance, book me before i die rotting at home and also before i fly off on the 15th. IF not you have to wait for about a few months more. And i do really really miss you all. =S

Anyway In case any of you were wondering Bio chem test was not too bad. I mean if you compare it to Oc that is. haha.

Oh and i have to apply for Cross Disciplinary subjects soon. Anyone got suggestions?

Yes.. the irony of poly life.

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Yes, the above is a true reflection of my age even if you think otherwise.
I'm in a jubilant mood cause i was feeling quite down yesterday and i kinda felt that no one cared. Turns out God hears my 'complains' and just as i said it last night i got my first birthday msg from the person i least expected it from. =)

Least to say from that period last night till now things have just gotten more and more incredible. HAP paper was not too difficult so it gave me hope and With a certain friend messaging me just as i was thinking it would be the last thing that would happen.Really made my day =)

Anyway a big THANK YOU to all you wonderful people who messaged me. i really really felt appreciated and remembered even though it was only a small act. Loves everyone. <3>

Oh and to my dearest daddy up there, You RAWK cause you gave me a wonderful birthday. =)

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I hate to say this but i'm feeling emo-ish again.

Term tests are killing me and i'm suffering bad. Why is BMS soooo hard?? =(

Today i also made the biggest blunder i have made in a long time, i forgot to shade my MCQ answers on the Answer paper and i didn't realise till after the paper, which means i handed in a blank paper. 10 WHOLE MARKS i could have gotten i gave away.. And its not like i excell at ORGANIC CHEMISTRY.

Bahhhhh. i'm a sad wreck.




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Haven't been updating much because I've been rather busy with activities and also because term tests start tomorrow, imagine my horror. Anyway just a short update since i have to super get back to studying to prevent myself from like failing which is highly possible considering i failed like 4 out of 6 quizzes ( yes yes I'm serious).

Its hard i can tell you coming from a no background and competing with the ones i like to call 'purees'(pronounced pure~es) aka the smart people who took like tri science and A math but I'll persevere cause I'm going all in to do my best and with God's Grace, I'm pretty sure I'll get along quite well.

If you are kind enough and want to keep me in your prayers, my papers are as follows

Monday 4th June- Principles of Inorganic and physical Chemistry and Comm Skills for Applied Science

Tuesday 5th June-Maths & Statics and the 'wonderful' Organic Chemistry

Wednesday 6th June (which happens to also be my birthday =< ) is Human Anatomy & Physiology

Thursday 7th June - Biochemistry

I greatly appreciate Prayers but if their sincere only i don't really want to put you up to anything. =)

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