Day 14.. (these days the numbers dun matter anymore)

Well for those who want a good laugh, i went all the way to NUH just for about 5 mins of Dental. HAHA. Travel to and fro takes about 2 hours and all that just for 5 mins and it cost me $105. Like great time waster i tell u. Dentist make good money.

Other than that my day was pretty routine besides the fact that i have to hand in quite a number of ten year series answers tomorrow of richard will have me slaughtered. Tution later so i dono how i'm gona squeeze all the work in limited time i have, Probably spend the night doing it i guess.

I still dono why people are so sensitive sometimes. I need a break, Mental breakdown imminient.
jOsH oUt..

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I dono why some people can be so sensitive. Anyone care to fill me in?

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Day 13

Well for starters i kinda just woke up, Ok to be precise woke up from the naps i had after i woke up this morning. Felt really sick this morning when i woke up so i had a small meal followed by meds and therefore the nap.

Something kinda hit me like not too long ago, O levels are in about 94 DAYS!!!! I never thought i'll say this but i'm trepidated.Reason being cause i've not started any studying and its not like i'm a genius or anything (yes i am a normal person as well.. i can't wake up one moring and go spitting out maths formulas and science equations). Therefore my conscience has been bugging me to get a move on and start pulling up my socks. I need help badly anyone know how to curb procrastination and laziness? or i'm so going to screw up my O levels.






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Day 12..

I spent the day watch Renovation going on in my house. Haha,prelims in less than a month and i wasted the whole day. An't i the best?? I'm going to fail O's ... YAY!! Maybe i'll work for construction then.

Changing roof tiles is not the easiest i can assure u, First u have to remove all existing tiles,than u have to remove timber supports so that u can out a layer of insulation, than put back timber supports and then the new tiles. The thing is whoever invented roof tiles was damn smart, they're designed in such a way they actually fit over each other like lego.Left Right top and bottom. no extra substance needed. Like WOW, i never knew that.

Ok roof tiles aside. How long will it take 5 men to move a 'mountain' of tiles from the 3rd floor to the 1st?Ans: depends on how they do it and how fast they work.
In this case about 2 hours.( they had to first carry it down to the 2nd floor and then the first u see.) Lesson to learn. Teamwork is VERY important. Together they kinda formed a human chain so it sped up things.

Ok. i dono why the whole entry is on construction but don't look down on them, some of them are smarter than u think.

Oh and here are some pics of the mountain in case u want a estimate on size.












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Day 11.

I'm longing for closure. The last eleven days have been the very horrible.I don't know why but somehow i can't get over it,this way of ending a friendship is just not what i prefer it to be. I mean not like we were together or anything but the thought of losing a friend is just so painful.

I can live with u avoiding me and all but i really want to know the reason behind it at least? I'm truely perplexed at what u are trying to accomplish by doing this. Please do me a favour and explain things to me? Its not like u don't have the answers or anything its u just don't want to tell me. I Know alrite.

You'll probably never read this but i still had to say it anyway.

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Day 10...

I think i'm getting emotional. Today i kinda lost my temper which i like have not done so in a long time.Got a little affected by something and well to suan me at a time like this well u're asking for trouble.Sorry to Leonel who had to endure my outburst, i really didn't mean it. i was just really confused and not in the right mind so don't talk to me about anything regarding her. To prove my point. Can't remember who asked me if i was Christian and i answered "a bit". Sigh. Thankfully Kee Jong was there to help correct my mistake.I am seriously regreting staying back for that Thanksgiving Rehearsal. I realised how inferior i am so to speak, i mean here i am with not a single prize and there she is with Explemplary and some other award i shall not mention cause only 1 person is receiving it.I really am delighted for her i mean being last year and all and able to get especially that certain award that well is not that easy to attain.But on the other hand it really adds to the already mounting tension between us.I really don't know how to face her anymore.

Don't start giving me lenghty speeches and all alrite. Its my personal issue. I'll deal with it somehow. And if u really insist on doing something.. Pray For Me.. I really need God's guidance.

Chinese results coming out,O's coming... now this. I don't know how long more i can keep this up. I sometimes really wish i could just go some place far far away and forget all these things that are bothering me.Oh well. Shit happens.

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Its Day 9 now.

Fell sick again today,nothing that serious as before but meds as usual are are killer so i couln't go to school or i'll just be like drowsy the whole day. I mean come to think of it, i've been sleeping the whole day till like now.Besides i was just told they had five free periods today and consecutive one too so like from after recess till dismissal basically the class was slacking away.Thankfully for that too i didn't miss too much but wednesday's are quite bad actually 2 accounts 1 english 3 maths and 2 chinese.Which putting simply means 1 english and 3 maths i do study.The rest are well, unofficial free periods. Therefore if i had gone today it would have meant a total of 7 free periods or in other words just one period of english.Ok. i missed english remedial as well which i would have gone but as above, i'm high on meds, i'm not even thinking so well anymore.

Came to a realisation today too, Sometimes u may not realise it but things u do may sometimes affect those around u. Like a simple word of encouragement if given at the right time may be all someone needs.Or if done wrongly i simple small action may cause a misunderstanding in which both parties won't benefit.But the basic idea i'm trying to say is think before u act. U will never know how the other party may react.

If only u would tell me.....

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Day 8

Today was a long day, Though i didn't go for remedial, i went for accounts tuition which ended at like 7pm i think.Not that i had any choice,tomorrows some accounts test that i'm not exactly prepared for.Other than that today was pretty much quite a usual day with not that much excitement.Oh besides chapel where the topic was on friendship, it kinda reminded me of some stuff that well i've been avoiding.

Had a meaningful conversation with a good friend today and i realised that life is well so unpredictable. Nothing stays absolute, what may be today may not be tomorrow.So do treasure wad u have right now for u may not know how long it may last.Shocking as it may seem, its the TRUTH. 'Shit'(and i quote the guy who can mention it alot of times in just 2 periods) happens, u may disagree but put it this way, when shit hits the fan, everyone gets affected.

Oh and in case your wondering whats with my recent beheavior, well not that i really want to ignore u but i just can't bear to face u. I'm Sorry.

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Still Day 7

I came to a realisation today.Firstly, i'm quite an insensitive person, What may affect others greatly i find quite minute that i can't even remember.Not that i really did it on purpose but i really didn't know my certain action would cause such a great reaction.Not that i'm blaming anyone but you could have told me? i would have difinitely not gone on and 'scared' u off so to speak. Not too late though, u can still tell me if u want i would really well appreciate it.

Secondly, Almost everyone has started studying for O's already while here i am slacking away at the com writing a meaningless entry that's not going to get me a good O level grade.Its not that i don't feel the pressure and all but somehow i just come come to terms with stuff and well my 'spur-er' has left so to speak.( i know damn well these are excuses but i can't help it. I JUST CAN'T STUDY!!). I'm like sooo behind already i need to catch up badly.ANyone care to lend me a helping hand? i would really be thankful.

Richard's going to kill me one of these days i'm sure,been not doing his work for like eons and like he has like this high expectations of me to be his 'distinction' student. I mean like great to see someone actually values me but i'm sorry to say i'm a lazy bum. God help me.i'm crying

Sometimes forgiveness is the hardest to find.........

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Day 7.

Phase 1 is now complete at 0215,Yes i changed the blogskin again.Reason being cause i felt it would be easier to start from scratch rather than edit the old skin though i really liked it.Spent quite a while cause was making so adjustments that were a little complex but at least for now their done. Oh and for once, though this is designed in Mozilla, the IE pple have a little treat that doesn't work on Mozilla. Compliments of me.(i still think Mozila Firefox is the better brower though)

Today marks the 1 week anniversary of something significant which has something to do with the template change but i'm not going to go into it. Reason being i see no point and also cause like this is Webspace? HELLO.. i'm not that idiotic to say stuff that the whole world can read at the click of a mouse. Ask me if u really are dying to know,bur i'm not promising any answers.

Apparently sometime this week the chinese O level results will be out.Really don't know how i'll fair but i hope for a C5 Or C6. i really did try my best and well, i leave the rest to God.(Ps: Hope u get your A2 and all.)Pray for me alrite?

Lastly a little something i received from someone.

Heaven 's Grocery Store

I was walking down life’s highway a long time ago.

One day I saw a sign that read, “Heaven’s Grocery Store”.

As I got a little closer the door came open wide,

and when I came to myself I was standing inside.

I saw a host of Angels, they were standing everywhere.

One handed me a blanket and said, “My Child shop with care”.

Everything a Christian needs is in that grocery store,

and all you can’t carry, come back the next day for more.

First, I got some Patience, Love was in the same row.

Further down was Understanding, needed everywhere you go.

I got a box or two of Wisdom, a bag or two of Faith,

I just couldn’t miss the Holy Ghost, it was all over the place.

I stopped to get some Strength and Courage to help me run this race,

but then my blanket was getting full, and I remembered I needed Grace.

I didn’t forget Salvation, which like the others was free,

so I tried to get enough of that to save both you and me.

Then I started to the counter to pay my grocery bill,

for I thought I had everything to do my master’s will.

As I went up the aisle, I saw Prayer and had to put it in,

for I knew when I stepped outside, I would run right into sin.

Peace and Joy were plentiful, they were on the last shelf.

Song and Praises were hanging near, so I just helped myself.

Then I said to the Angel, “How much do I owe”?

The Angel smiled and said, “Just take them everywhere you go.”

Again, I politely asked “How much do I really owe?”

The Angel smiled again and said,

“My Child, Jesus Paid Your Bill A Long Time Ago.”

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Day 5/6

Been rather busy the past few days, Turns out i did go to East Coast on Friday night and i got home about 2 am.

Yesterday, Woke up at 8 and dressed to the nines so i could go to winston's weddding at church. Thankfully the service went smoothly and nothing went wrong( at least for the Av side). After that was lunch which was pretty much not too bad.Following that i went down with them to the Hotel early to have a rest and help with some stuff,But we pretty much slacked till about 5pm. Dinner started a little late but it was quite good food i must say(pity Allan, Cindy & Ben couldn't have theirs when it was warm). Dinner ended about 2315 i think and after waiting for most of the guest to leave, Ben gave me a lift home. Reached hine about 0015 i think. Following that, i kinda overslept church this morning cause i was really too tired and i had to get back whole week of 'owing' rest.(sorry Allan, i really wanted to go but...)

And then i came back to this house to find it pretty much still in a mess and my room to be well, in the worst it has been cause they had to do some work that directly affected my room but i'll bear with it, Just about 1 more month and a half and i'll have a nice house. which will be open to parties and all if u guys need a place and all.

Right. pictures of yesterday will be uploaded if requested but i have to receive them first though.And since i'm on the subject letme just add by Saying "Congratulations to Winston &Fern on their marriage"

All for now, i need to see to abit of stuff before i go back to the other house for dinner( in case your wondering why i choose to frequent and even stay at this half renovated house, well lets just say my com and the internet are great things i dun live without)

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Day 4

Today celebrated Racial Harmony Day in school, programme was kind of fun, but i wasn't around with my class for most of it. To Ms wong and the other teachers involved, Great job well done.Besides that, i had a compo test today compliments of richard. Was superbly tired so didn't exactly write much, probably going to fail and get a lecture from him. Crap
Was supposed to go East coast unwind later but thanks to bad planning it got called off last min again,much to the annoyance of me. GRR.. i'm going to kill ....... always like that..

On the other hand, guess i should keep my end of my word to someone, at least for now. Dono why it has to be this way but i don't have much choice.Too bad for me i guess and indrectly my fault anyway.

Winston's wedding is tomorrow, i'm doing Av, Hope i'm not late, its going to be a long day tomorrow.Need my rest and a need to spend time doing QT. Been neglecting it for a few days now cause i've been too tired.(i fell asleep while msning last night, like damn crappy.. sry pple i was talking to namely mence. )

Oh it turns out bobo and the gang want to go watch a movie like now.. Like dono if i'll go anot, these things tend to drag and i need a full night's rest thats for sure. I'll see how.

Avoid Avoid thats all we do
Day in Day out You hide behind that wall
Blocking me out ITS true

How long How long must this go on?
For nobody is Perfect
Not even the Prefects

I'm no poet
But i'm willing to try
As long as its worth it
Anything i'll try.

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Day3.

Today i had no Lit again,Ms Johnson didn't come again.My favorite lessons of the week were spent learning Geography, not that i disliked it or anything, i kinda enjoyed myself.Mrs Lau can really teach if u're willing to learn, maybe a little boring but she does her best to make it more interesting?Give her a chance people, She's the one u're going to depend on if u want a decent O level grade.(and i'm saying this even though i dun take Geog)

Somehow with every step i take, i learn something new,U have have to trust that gut feeling sometimes cause well, it could God trying to tell u something.I didn't listen and look where it got me.BUT.. I believe that its all part of a complex and wonderful plan to help me learn something. Only time will tell and God will make a way

Don't worry, i will respect your decision like i said, i just hope u'll be happy and keep that smile on your face alrite? =)

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Day 2

Firstly, The name's Joshua. and its spelt J.O.S.H.U.A.(not that u care anywae. i mean u dun care bout anyone but yourself)

Next, Remedial today was quite great, won't jump to conclusions so fast but i'm going to say i'll probably learn quite alot during the next few weeks, Mrs Khan's method of teaching is rather unique and i'm kinda begining to like it.

Oh and one last thing i think i want to add, Ms Wong Was Really Really nice today, she bought us lolipops so that we would do our maths and stay concentrated. Ever seen a class eating in unison? you should,the sight of people eating/ math-ing and trying to converse is just bemusing to watch actually.

i'm breaking down, why of all things must this be happening? could u PLEASE tell me. i really really miss u so much. 9437302730968.


Have always been and will always be, Alwasy here, Always Available



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Day 1
Today passed quite quickly , i mean when u have so much to do u feel times flies by and u wish it'ld just slow slow down once in a while.The first day after the loss of a good friend, deep down i'm hurting but there's nothing i can do. Honestly i dono how long i'm going to live with this mask, one of these days i'll probably break down and cry.

That aside, Remedial today with LFL was ok lah. Not the best of lessons but i'll give her some credit for at least trying to entice us with that 'mickey mouse/cat/some funny animal'. Compair and contrast. LOL.

I dono how to face u anymore,I'm trepidated of what your response might be. I dono what your thinking anymore and i really do miss u very much.

Still Always Here Always Available

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I lost a good friend today. Not by death but human initiated. It came so sudden i never expected this to happen. WHY??!! i ask myself but i just don't know the answer to that question.And though it hurts me real bad. I'll respect your decision. Just remember if u need anything, i'm still always Here Always available.

Joshua died today. :'(

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My fingers are swollen again,this time left hand.(wait wasn't it left the other time as well?) and it's horrible cause i can't really put them to any much use. Yes even as i type now i'm doing it singlehandedly cause i don't want to aggravate the swelling.

Anyway, Tomorrows O's chinese listening compre, the last and well, onli paper i really have not that much problem with cause they read out the questions.but all the same PLEASE pray for me, i really really hope i can pass chinese overall with at least a C5 or C6 .


Relationships are like flowers, the wither & die when not taken care of, i SHALL not let this happen.

oh and Mence, Get well soon yeah? Take cares. Praying for u. =)

Yong yuan dou zai


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Dang wo xiang qi yi qian de shi, Wo you yi zhong xiang nian de gan jue,
Dou kuai liang ker xing qi le, bu guo ni hai shi zhe yang de dui wo.
Tao di hai yao tuo jio neh? Wo bi zhe yan jing dou xiang qi ni de siao rong
Kuai yuan liang wo ba. Dui bu qi.


Queen of my heart
So here we stand
In our secret place
Where the sound of the crowd
Is so far away
You take my hand
And it feels like home
We both understand
It's where we belong

So how do I say
Do I say goodbye
We both have our dreams
We both wanna fly
So let's take tonight
To carry us through
The lonely times

I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all of our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I find my way back
To your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart

So let's take tonight
And never let go
While dancing we'll kiss
Like there's no tomorrow
As the stars sparkle down
Like a diamond ring
I'll treasure this moment
Till we meet again

But no matter how far (no matter how far)
Or where you may be (where you may be)
I just close my eyes (just close my eyes)
And you're in my dreams
And there you will be
Until we meet

I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all off our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I find my way back
To your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart

I'll always look back
As I walk away
This memory will last for eternity
And all off our tears
Will be lost in the rain
When I find my way back
To your arms again
But until that day
You know you are
The queen of my heart

Oh yeah
You're the queen of my heart (queen of my heart)
No matter how many years it takes (queen of my heart)
i'm coming home to you
Oh yeah (queen of my heart)
Oh yes you are
The queen of my heart

-Thats all i ask of you..
94846880929*


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My brother can be such a nice guy i discovered, Even though it was like 0130hrs he still drove to the other house to pick me cause my mum wasn't back yet. Yes we both live in the dusty half renovated house.Even though its like only a 5 min drive i still appreciate it.To my dismay however, i realised when i reached home that i left my phone at the other house. LIKE CRAP!! but the maid's bringing it over when she comes in the morning so not that bad, just hope my battery can last the whole day, its a long day tomorrow.

Renovation is a pain in the the butt.For one the dust seems endless and no matter how i try to keep it out of my room it still comes in. Next the people are doing some stuff thats indirectly affecting some particular electrical point which is somehow linked to certain rather important other points in my house which basically means i have to run temporary cabling to cope with the loss of power.(if u dono what i'm talking about Don't worry, just know i'm not irritated, i'm infuriated).

On the brighter side of things however,its the weekend again though its going to pass quickly,its kinda nice to break from routine of the 5 day school week.And to those out there who have been concerned about me these days, well i'm not exactly depressed and stuff, i'm just going through a tough patch.Continue to pray for me if u will, i really need prayer.

The new dawn brings about new beginings, therefore don't dwell too much in the past, for each new day is the start of something different.

And a song that keeps me going
I Know Who Holds Tomorrow

I don't know about tomorrow,
I just live from day to day.
And I don't borrow from its sunshine
'Cause the skies might turn to grey.
And I don't worry about the future,
'Cause I know what Jesus said,
And today I'm gonna walk right beside him
'Cause he's the one who knows what is ahead.

There are things about tomorrow
That I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.

And each step is getting brighter
As the golden stairs I climb.
And every burden is getting lighter
And all the clouds are silver lined.
And, over there the sun is always shining
And no tears will ever dim the eye
And the ending of the rainbow
Where the mountains, they touch the sky.

There are many things about tomorrow
I don't seem to understand
But I know who holds tomorrow
And I know who holds my hand.


I'm Always Here Always Available


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Today was the annual Sports day. As with the yearly affair, its a total waste of half a day,But as Ms Johnson did remind me. HALF A DAY so who's complaining? Furthermore it was at serangoon stadium, what better place than 10 mins away walking distance. Ok but i did make use of some time i guess, playing 'hide and seek' (no not to that childish extent it was a modified version) and for the record I'm NOT inane.

Oh and just a little thing to add before i end this entry, "Sometimes u just have to look in front of u to find what u want"

Still Always Here,Always Available

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Ok. For those dying to know, O level chinese Oral was erhm. REALITIVELY Alright.As usual, Couldn't read passage for nuts but i did get a vivid idea about what it was about? Conversation was pretty much quite fine besides the part where i just couldn't translate what i wanted to say into chinese. haha just couldn't think of a suitable word to describe.But anyway ITS OVER!! no point crying over spilt milk.I'm glad its over.

Oh and to the Discipline Comm in school. I'm sorry i broke tt single School Rule i onli discovered existed today.Wait then again does it count if i didn't know about it then?But i'm going to break it continuously anyway. HAHA.

(the remainder of this entry is for a certain someone who has been purposely avoiding me)
I doubt u'll every read this, but i just wana say that well its no point going on like this? Please? Avoiding me just makes me feel very bad about what happened and well if thats your purpose of having this 'cold war' than ok. i deserved it.But otherwise i really to hope u can put it behind us and lets pick up from where it was?Just friends? -Thats all i ask of u-

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Today i a few things Firstly i learnt that compaired to grass(yes that green thing that grows almost everywhere) i lose out.Haha

Next something a teacher said and i Quote " Men are like fine wine, the longer u keep the better.Whereas Women are like fish, the longer u keep the less fresh." ( i personally won't comment on the matter as i don't want to start some riot because of it.)((but ask me personally i might tell u my opinion))

Lastly, Mr chia for some apparent reason seems to like beaches. Don't ask me why, i have not much idea but he kept digressing as he went through the compre about some famous beach. Oh and he though me a new word "oppressive" though i won't use it as the weather today was fine.

A final thought. CHINESE O' LEVEL ORAL TOMORROW. God i really need a miracle i want to pass. Pray for me People.I'm rather trepidated and Fearful.

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Pictures as promised of my Half renovated dusty house.

Just some shots of packing






This is for reference how close my room is to the Toilet




The room in Question. HA





What left of the Toilet(its more bare right now)




Upstairs, i found this in the middle of the corridor(why? i no IDEA)




Now for toilets above,It was this before


VS
This After demolition




And a final photo to show how dusty this place is (look at the words)








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Monday, July 10, 2006

The Consequences of trying to stay in a house currently under renovation.(especially if your room is next to the toilet currently under going the most changes).

My room is as i left it this morning.Only difference is every surface is covered with a layer of dust or some sandy particles. If thats not bad enough even the floor is covered. I ended up having to walk in slippers all round my house cause its like that all around. Crap, even my bed is dusty, how the heck am i supposed to sleep tonight. haha lesson learnt, don't try to be a hero when your house is under renovation and volunteer to stick behind to look after the place.Enough for now, i need to start cleaning and packing my stuff up, i'm NOT GOING to clean them everyday.i shall just pack them up. Prob includes com so u guys know wad to expect.(photos later, if i get around to them that is)

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Italy WON the WORLD CUP. Whoot. I'm happier than i have been in a while,not that i'm much of a Italian supporter but heh. I prefer them to the French. And to Yk. Puma Rawks. HAHA

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Sunday, July 09, 2006

i'm alone again,the whole house minus me and my brother has moved out due to impending renovations to be done to the home in the course of the next 2 months. and since my brother has gone to Malaysia i think well, i'm all alone.

Under normal circumstances, i would have been real pleased, however recent 'hurts' and trepidation have changed me and transformed me to be no more who i used to be. Gone is the Joshua that used to give a shit (if u dun mind me saying) to whoever stood in his way, Now its just 'nobody' who wastes his time away not going so much as a hoot what is to happen.

Depressing entry as it sounds well its real(well almost). i really don't forsee much actually. But just want to add with regards to the last entry. TOday was indeed a wonderful day, not the best but oh well. better than nothing.

I NEED PRAYER..

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ok. the nose has stopped for some time now. Thats a relief, i haven't had nose bleeds like in a long long time. I recon its the weather,its been really really warm the past few days and i hope it gets better tomorrow.

Its been quite a eventful 2 days,still haven't recovered from the flu completely and still a little on the deaf side all in the after effects of the inferno flu bug flying around.I Hate falling sick but don't worry, i'm not going to fill this entry with whining. But i will say, i visited Mount Faber today and the view atop is like Awesome, wish i like could have some apartment or something one day up there, not really to stay but more like a small place where i can go to seek solace.Pictures another time though, i'm rather not in the mood to wait while they upload.

Going to have a great daY tomorrow. Not that i can fortell the future but i think if u proclaim something and believe in it, it should happen.Thats all for now..

PS. when will this be over? ireallymissyou

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Saturday, July 08, 2006

I hate nose bleeds. i was just in the middle of a bath and i looked down to see this red pool on the floor. Got a shock of my life,update again when it stops. typing single handedly is hard.

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Friday, July 07, 2006

A little something i stumbled upon. I find it quite bemusing.A must watch for Starwars fans.

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Sometimes to understand a girl u must talk to a girl. haha. They are too *cough* complicated.. .

I know my mistake,call me dumb but how was i supposed to know back then. Nevertheless only time will tell the results i will have. How long does take one to forget and get over it? i don't know but i'll wait.

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Thursday, July 06, 2006

Something mentioned in Lit class today struck me hard today.Sometimes, its better to know when to let go of things rather than to continue holding on,attachment will only bring on more suffering than good.Everything in life is impermanent and transient and its all part and parcel of life.The question was posed as a 'digression' to moral education :Are you holding on to things your not supposed to?

If i ask me honestly i can tell u i think i am. Its not that i want to but somehow certain things just come in the way of letting go. Try as i may, some wounds never seem to heal, and to just fall unto those all wounds just hurts so bad sometimes.Partially due to being the stubborn me refusing to change my view point of certain matters once i have them made up and also cause well i guess u could say i'm sentimental.

Time changes everthing, what was yesterday may not be today and what is today may cease to be tomorrow. U can never be too sure what each new day brings, but all i can say is Trust God, he will provide.

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Wednesday, July 05, 2006

According to my Merriam-Webster Dictionary, the difinition of Treasure is as such:
To hold or keep as precious : CHERISH, PRIZE
synonym see APPRECIATE.
Putting it simply it just means to not take things around u for granted but instead to treat them like they mean the world to u.

That aside,WHAT can u treasure? Well almost anything depending on how much value and importance someone or something has to u.Be it a relationship with a friend, boy/girl friend, parents u name it. Or a certan item perhaps that holds utmost value to u?It may not seem much to others but it could mean something to u. These are things u should think about treasuring because sometimes they can be irreplaceable.Once u lose them u've lost them for good usually, no amount of money of effort can possibly get it back.To start regretting only after u have lost it will be too late. U can't cry over spilled Milk. FAce it. Therefore start treasuring those around u who may have made an influence on your life or been there for u in times of need.These usually are the best people to have around u.

Done. Clear enough now Ze ju?



To PS Hope u do well for O's Chinese Oral tmr. U can do it. All the best. :)

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Tuesday, July 04, 2006

As with the entry below,I'm sick again. I spent yesterday and today popping cocktails of meds and sleeping due to the fact that i just felt so sick and weak i could barely get out of bed.Apparently i missed quite a bit though,not that i wanted to but i didn't have much choice.

Time flies, in the blink of an eye, 6 wonderful months have passed, though i regret not treasuring those times with utmost thankfulness i guess its too late to do anything now already.What's done cannot be undone, thats the facts of life. We've all had our share of good times and bad times, and its only through difficulties that we learn.Therefore i end this post on a happy note. HAHA.

As long as your happy i'll be happy.

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Sunday, July 02, 2006

This video is dedicated to that someone special who has made an enomous impact in my life.(U may need to refresh the page if it doesn't load)

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Saturday, July 01, 2006

Oh and i just realised my blog looks different from how i see it as i use Mozilla Firefox and it looks totally funny in IE.Lol. is it true my tag board looks faint?

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Moral of the day: Never take for granted what u have, only realising how much u treasure something till u lose it. By then it'll be too late.

The past few days have significantly been the few that i spend doing reflections on issues pertaining to my life due to the sudden wave of unexpected events that happened.Some of u may know what i'm refering to but for the majority just take it as i'm going through some minor set-backs that i never foresaw coming.U can never be too sure sometimes in life,one moment everything may be going so smoothly and the next it just comes tumbling down.Scary as it may seem, it happens. Life's never fair,well at least not to a great extent anyway. But its through all this that i learnt that man is fallible.That's why we need God,He had everything Planned out before we were even born,that just shows how much we should trust Him for even it seems not right at that time,its all part of a plan for the future.
Verse of the day: For my thoughts are not your thoughts,Neither are your ways my ways Says the Lord- Isaiah 55:8

I may not know what tomorrow may bring but i know My Lord will be watching over me.
Keep me in your prayers alrite?
And to a particular someone: I admit it was an oversight on my part,I'm sorry. Friends??


If i could choose to be anyone for a day, i would choose to be Nobody. For Nobody is perfect. :)

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