Day 10...

I think i'm getting emotional. Today i kinda lost my temper which i like have not done so in a long time.Got a little affected by something and well to suan me at a time like this well u're asking for trouble.Sorry to Leonel who had to endure my outburst, i really didn't mean it. i was just really confused and not in the right mind so don't talk to me about anything regarding her. To prove my point. Can't remember who asked me if i was Christian and i answered "a bit". Sigh. Thankfully Kee Jong was there to help correct my mistake.I am seriously regreting staying back for that Thanksgiving Rehearsal. I realised how inferior i am so to speak, i mean here i am with not a single prize and there she is with Explemplary and some other award i shall not mention cause only 1 person is receiving it.I really am delighted for her i mean being last year and all and able to get especially that certain award that well is not that easy to attain.But on the other hand it really adds to the already mounting tension between us.I really don't know how to face her anymore.

Don't start giving me lenghty speeches and all alrite. Its my personal issue. I'll deal with it somehow. And if u really insist on doing something.. Pray For Me.. I really need God's guidance.

Chinese results coming out,O's coming... now this. I don't know how long more i can keep this up. I sometimes really wish i could just go some place far far away and forget all these things that are bothering me.Oh well. Shit happens.

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