Firstly i would like to wish my mummy a
HAPPY Mother's Day.
My mum is and will always be the very very best. =)


Now i shall pick off where i left yesterday. Well, i honestly have been very tired in the last 3 weeks and everyday just seems to get worst, I'm like at a very big disadvantage to my fellow course mates because i so happen to have only taken combined science (phy/chem) whereas most of them at least took Bio or Pure Chem or at the least A maths. In another course this would not have mattered but in my case where most stuff is Bio/chem related well. I'm losing big time and finding it super hard to cope. And it didn't help when they decided to compare the number of A's they got in class the other day. Turns out my one distinction is nothing compared to them who have 3 and above. So yes, i was feeling inferior.

Now i say 'was' because well as i was feeling down a certain friend tried to cheer me up and i must say i was quite thankfully for that. However deep down i still had doubts and worries and i really asked God how was going to cope. And as usual He somehow managed to speak to me again. This time however i realised that it was not only the area of studies that i was feeling tired/burned out. My ministry life has also declined and i found myself dragging myself to church.

Basically i was reminded of Philippians 4:13 again, and that my situations could be bad, but in contrast to Job, its really nothing. It was then i also realised that i had lost my first love. What happened to the passion i once had?.

Which is why i pray that Come what may, God, i want to run for You.

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