*Disclaimer*The following is a personal entry that i initially thought of privatizing, but just need to get off my chest. Toes might be stepped on inevitably and things you probably never knew about me depicted. This entry or any part thereof should never be taken out of context and is and will always be for eyes only.


To begin let me clear the air and state for the record that I'm a closely guarded person who does not like people knowing me too well. That and the fact that i find it extremely difficult to trust people.

As a result of the above i have few friends believe it or not. But I'm every bit human and thus i do like people to converse with and have productive conversation. I'll admit it get lonely at times which is why i really appreciate when people treat me nice, Call it my soft spot due to a neglected childhood or whatever you want, end of the day, if someone goes out their way to be nice to me, I’m for lack of a better word touched inside.

Another thing about me is I’m not a very expressive person, not that I cannot talk to people and all but more that sometimes I have a problem expressing myself face to face with someone, even my parents. Case in point, they have recently began this quest to seemly try to spoil me and i do enjoy it, but there's always the internal debate that goes on where mind says I must thank them but i end up with no guts to do so. My parents mind you the very people who raised me.

You might ask how I can live with it, but what I lack in conversing I make up in actions. Not going to go into the details because the point of this is by far then to redeem myself. The point here is simple; once in a while I do get carried away when trying to show my gratitude in actions. It’s not deliberate in any way and I’m apologetic if people do get the wrong idea but it really is second nature to me to be doing what I am. By no means do I have an ulterior motive I’m just trying to in my own way, show you how grateful I am.

How you want to interpret this I leave to your digression but by no means am I trying to defend my actions in any way,

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